
So, I thought I could be a bit of a ghost writer.
That I could hide my face while I just write about my feelings and make my rants without having to trouble anybody. But obviously, I can’t.
My heart aches sometimes you know.
That feeling you have when you can feel your heart beating so hard that you can tell the distortions in the beats without having to place your hand on your chest.
My thoughts roam and wander off so far that I find it difficult to come back to the place I am at. Sometimes, I just close my eyes and dream of a time where I wouldn’t have to feel the pain anymore.
“It’s because you care too much”.
“It’s because you are too emotional.”
I have heard close friends tell me what they think causes me to stay up at night and think that I am working, when I can’t even finish a website in one evening anymore.
I feel lost, like I am stuck in an abyss.
Falling but never reaching the end.
There’s something I want but I don’t know if I will ever get a hold of it.


